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		<title>Wild Justice</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 22 Oct 2008 22:31:58 +0000</pubDate>
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WILD JUSTICE
A great school teacher and great friend recently sent me a copy of Harold Kushner&#8217;s &#8220;Living a Life That Matters&#8221; (Resolving the conflict between conscience and success).  It&#8217;s full of interesting/provocative ideas and applications.  In light of the holocaust workshop&#160; this past weekend,&#160; I wanted to share [...]]]></description>
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<p><span style="font-size: large;">WILD JUSTICE</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">A great school teacher and great friend recently sent me a copy of Harold Kushner&rsquo;s &ldquo;Living a Life That Matters&rdquo; (Resolving the conflict between conscience and success).  It&rsquo;s full of interesting/provocative ideas and applications.  In light of the holocaust workshop&nbsp; this past weekend,&nbsp; I wanted to share a couple of passages I was reading the following&nbsp; morning from the chapter entitled &ldquo;Wild Justice: The Seductive Pleasure of Getting Even.&rdquo;  Would love to hear thoughts on this from anyone when you have a few moments.</span></p>
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<p><span style="font-size: large;">Excerpts from &ldquo;Living a Life That Matters&rdquo;&nbsp; Harold Kushner</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-size: large;">&hellip;when someone hurts us, part of us wants to pay the person back, to get even, to give him what he deserves, while another part of us is uncomfortable at the prospect of having to lower ourselves to his level in order to get even.  We feel justified, even righteous, in getting back at someone who has done us wrong, but at the same time we feel more than a little bit morally compromised.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">The fact that so many great plays and novels ( Hamlet, the Greek tragedies of Aeschylus, The Count of Monte Cristo) have the theme of revenge at their core, and that popular novels and movies about revenge have the ability to grab us emotionally, should tell us how deeply we feel on the subject. I have heard movie audiences cheer when the fictional hero finally catches u with the fictional villain &hellip; Revenge, and fantasies of revenge are among the strongest emotions we feel.. They are nearly universal, nearly irresistible, and often deeply troubling.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">The title of this chapter is taken from a remark by the sixteenth century English writer Fancis Bacon: &ldquo;Revenge is a kind of wild justice, which the more men&rsquo;s nature runs to, the more ought the law to weed it out&rdquo;  In that one sentence, Bacon tells us four important things about revenge:<br />
-	It is something that a lot of people are drawn to.<br />
-	It is natural, instinctive, not something we have to learn.<br />
-	It resembles justice but is unlike justice in important ways<br />
-	It is undesirable. It is natural the way weeds are natural, and if not checked, it will crowd out healthier emotions even as weeds choke off the more desirable cultivated plants.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">I define revenge as punishment in the name of justice, tarnished by taking pleasure in hurting the person being punished&hellip; can we at least count on society to protect good people by imposing fines and prison terms on those who would harm us? Or do we have to take justice into our own hands?</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">&hellip; revenge is sweet in the contemplation, but bitter in the carrying out.  The target of our revenge deserves to be hurt, and part of us is eager to hurt him because of what he did to us, but another part of us feels diminished by doing the hurting.<br />
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The ambivalence in getting even is that our consciences condemn it even as our souls crave it&hellip;</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">I can appreciate that ambivalence.  I have sat in movie theatres, my heart rejoicing at the retributive violence of Clint Eastwood&rsquo;s Dirty Harry Callahan even as my head was condemning the  mindless destruction&hellip;</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">That moment when the community as a whole claimed for itself the right and responsibility to punish criminals, taking the role  away form the injured parties, represents one of the great advances in the history of civilization.  Punishment could now be administered  coolly, objectively, by an outsider who would feel no vindictiveness and take no personal pleasure in its administration.  It would be justice without vengeance.  Susan Jacoby, in her history of revenge, Wild Justice, writes, &ldquo;One measure of a civilizations complexity is the distance between the aggrieved individual and the administration of justice.&rdquo;  Problems arise however, when people fear that they cannot depend on society to administer justice, the courts are slow, unreliable, or inclined to  play favorites or that the law is full of loopholes that let the guilty escape.  We then face the uncomfortable choice between letting a guilty person go free and taking the responsibility for punishing into our own hands, with the bitter aftertaste and sense of moral compromise that often entails.<br />
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<p><span style="font-size: large;">Harold Kushner</span></p>
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Carl here again, I could go on copying out of the book all night, but just wanted to share a taste with you and get your thoughts in connection to the holocaust, the society we live in now, and even the &ldquo;petty&rdquo; wrongs that are committed against us (or we commit against others) often unknowingly every day, that you would not go to court for.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">Looking forward to your thoughts </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;">Carl - World Outside My Shoes</span></p>
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		<title>Speaking Tour Pics</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 04 Sep 2008 18:58:01 +0000</pubDate>
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<p>Teresa and students</p>
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<p>Video Conference with Students in Florida</p>
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		<title>New Memories</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 29 Aug 2008 22:55:48 +0000</pubDate>
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Wow,&#160; What has happened to this quiet little city of Kigali?&#160; When we lived here in the nineties I never ever saw so many cars/motorcycles/trucks on the streets at one time.&#160; I guess it issss morning rush hour, but still, whoa&#8230;&#160; Sam is taking me to the bus station to catch a ride out to [...]]]></description>
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<p>Wow,&nbsp; What has happened to this quiet little city of Kigali?&nbsp; When we lived here in the nineties I never ever saw so many cars/motorcycles/trucks on the streets at one time.&nbsp; I guess it issss morning rush hour, but still, whoa&#8230;&nbsp; Sam is taking me to the bus station to catch a ride out to Kibuye in the west but I think we are going to miss the bus.&nbsp; Hakuna&nbsp; Matata,&nbsp; Sam is on his cell phone to my new friend-to-be Bagabo telling him to buy me a ticket, save me a seat, and ask the driver to pick me up just below the round-point heading out of town.&nbsp; In a couple of minutes we pull over I jump out and about 45 seconds later I jump into my Kibuye-bound bus.&nbsp; Clean, comfortable, &quot;cultural&quot; music playing, and Bagabo prefers English over French&#8230; great start! </p>
<p>Leaving the bustling town behind, Rulibrwa&nbsp; brick/tile factory comes into view on the bank of the Nyabarongo river and it feels good to be rolling though this gorgeous terraced countryside again.&nbsp; Coming up on the left, 25 k&#8217;s from town is Amiel&rsquo;s place, my former administrative assistant&rsquo;s home. His eucalyptus plantation is growing back&#8230;<br />
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Muscular young men pushing bikes up the steep hill, one hand on the handle bars one arm wrapped around an enormous sack of sweet potatoes. Hoe swinging farmers in the valley sinking their blades into the muck of the muddy water surrounding their garden bed, pulling more rich soil up onto the bed as they reclaim the wetlands.</p>
<p>A truck snorting&nbsp; stuff into the blues skies, loaded with&nbsp; what looks like 2 truckloads of goods struggles up one of the thousand hills.&nbsp; He just can&#8217;t shake the long winding string of vehicles on his tale as they busily role up their windows to shut out his fumy stink.&nbsp; As a boy peddles past our crawling cue I wonder if&nbsp; thoughts stirred by the cars&nbsp; with&nbsp; the &quot;IT&quot; license plates of NGO&#8217;s vehicles stirs anything in his mind close to what they stir in my mind.&nbsp; How many changes have come to&nbsp; this tiny country on the belly button of Africa. </p>
<p>Free of the truck we now fly around newly paved curves.&nbsp; Fly that is when the oncoming bus driver has given our driver the all-clear sign, by jabbing his index finger heavenward several times, letting us know there are no cops ahead.&nbsp; These foot policemen are serious about reducing the number of accidents that have plagued these roads.&nbsp; Dark uniformed pairs, men and women sometimes, with one wearing a florescent green traffic overcoat, are the law.&nbsp; And&nbsp; if you are doing something wrong, don&#8217;t try slipping them something to improve your situation or you very well may find yourself in deeper soup than simply paying a traffic fine.</p>
<p>We finally leave our comfortable 25 passenger Toyota Coaster bus in Kibuye (seems to be a huge fleet of these &quot;Coasters&quot; criss-crossing this payee) and climb into a&nbsp; Toyota double cab 4&#215;4.&nbsp; Leaving the pavement behind our shocks are getting a vicious pounding as we begin to follow the shore line of Lake Kivu, one of the cleanest lakes in the world. Around every corner is a postcard&nbsp; picture with coves reminding one of mini fiords. Steep steep hillsides covered with banana groves and coffee bushes,,, I mean STEEP!&nbsp; Most residents aren&#8217;t impressed with their sheer beauty. For them it&#8217;s&nbsp; simply a long way down to get water and a much longer way back up.</p>
<p>Stopping to take a picture, little kids materialize from nowhere (You can allllllways count on this &quot;appearing&quot;) and&nbsp; they start saying&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &quot;Agacupa&quot; (agachoopa), &quot;Agacupa&quot;.&nbsp; I look at Bagabo and say, &quot;what&#8217;s this?&nbsp; 15 years ago they used to say &#8216;amafranga&#8217; (money), &#8216;amafranga&#8217;&quot;.&nbsp; He smiles and says their asking for plastic water bottles.&nbsp; They will use them to take water to school.&nbsp; Might sound like a small insignificant change, but how about that symbolizing something larger going on?</p>
<p>Round another bend there are shiny roofs&nbsp; across the valley reflecting the noon sun.&nbsp; &quot;What about those houses Bagabo?&quot;&nbsp; &quot;The government supplies the roofing sheets and the local district arranges the mud brick construction.&quot; He goes on to say that they are most likely for widows and/or orphans. I remembered hearing 2 days earlier how the&nbsp; government was asking the different denominations in the country&nbsp; to help in this housing effort for the homeless and for the Adventist church&#8217;s share&nbsp; it was working out to be about 2 homes per congregation.</p>
<p>&quot;Hey Bagabo what is that?&quot; &quot;That&#8217;s a methane plant, taking gas from the lake to make electricity&quot; &nbsp;</p>
<p>I can&#8217;t tell you how many times I drove these roads in the 90&#8217;s&#8230; knew them like the back of my hand, but&nbsp; change is definitely happening. In fact the word is that this&nbsp; long teeth-jarring lake-side road is due to be reworked and paved starting next year.&nbsp; What a gorgeous drive it will be.&nbsp; To my right an incredibly steep hillside that defied terracing forever now has hundreds of coffee bushes on it and there is a new coffee bean washing/weighing station below.</p>
<p>I&#8217;m heading to Mugonero Hospital and&nbsp; not sure I want to write about my last visit here, about a year after the genocide ended.&nbsp; We had been building a nursing school here and the project like everything else in the country was interrupted by the killing.&nbsp; The word &quot;interrupted&quot; works for a building project but&nbsp; what words can we find for what happened to the flow of family and community life? &nbsp;</p>
<p>I can still&nbsp; hear very clearly the sound of hoes thwacking into the earth on that visit years ago&#8230;&nbsp; The men swinging them were not gardening&#8230;they were digging up mass graves&#8230; it was happening all around the country.&nbsp; Survivors and other family members and friends wanted to show respect for the loved ones taken from them&#8230; please stop for a minute and read these sentences again&#8230; take a moment to in a very small way try an put yourself in the shoes of at least the family members and friends&#8230;the shoes of the survivors would be way to &quot;deep&quot; to even&nbsp; try&#8230; but yes we should also try their &quot;shoes&quot;&nbsp; on to&#8230;.</p>
<p>Gruesome and unbelievably difficult, your body tenses listening for the hoe to hit something other than soil.&nbsp; I stood silently by a dad whose wife and five children were believed to be in this pit&#8230;he was away from home when the killing began&#8230;thousands at this location&#8230; many, perhaps most unidentifiable&#8230; some clues from clothing&#8230; the most tragic &quot;mosaic&quot; imaginable&#8230; these &quot;shells&quot; of loved ones encased in the earth&#8230;&nbsp; A very large group gathered to show that these were people of value, people greatly loved&#8230; and on the other side of the group stands the Minister of Defense, Paul Kagame&#8230;</p>
<p>For this visit, for now,&nbsp; I chose not to go inside the memorial at the entrance to the hospital&#8217;s campus.&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; You see during the 5 days that I have been back here, 14 years after the mass killing of innocents ended, I&#8217;m finding myself in desperate need of new memories&#8230;&nbsp; in class rooms and lecture halls around the USA I have been reliving these 1994 memories hundreds of times and there are just times I do not want to remember them here&#8230;and yet with survivors and other genuinely interested friends I find myself almost wanting to go touch and explore those memories again&#8230;&nbsp; But new memories&#8230; how I welcome new memories&#8230; New memories so that every time I pass Amiel&#8217;s Eucaliputs forest for example, I can choose among memories and not be obliged to only recall the small shelters that replaced the chopped down forest there&#8230; and it&#8217;s not the shelters but the vivid snapshots stored in my head of glancing in those shelters and seeing the families lying where they had been murdered, or the shoes and pants on the sun shriveled remains of someone&rsquo;s brother&#8230;&nbsp; to have a choice of memories to choose from when&nbsp; I cross&nbsp; the Nyabarongo river and not just think of the thousands of young and old, petite and not&#8230;&nbsp; Help me for a minute, how would you describe a masterpiece painting that had been slashed and vandalized beyond recognition/reconstruction?&nbsp; Now think about each soul, a masterpiece of the Master Designer, passing under this bridge, having been slash&#8230;..</p>
<p>Those who survived no doubt have had to cross this river hundreds of times since those dark days&#8230; and many on foot where there is so so much time to think&#8230;No ipod headphones to transport them somewhere else&#8230; during those first trips when everywhere one looked, you saw reminders of those taken from you&hellip;just take the half hour of walking before reaching the bridge&#8230;, and then the 2 minutes walking over the bridge&#8230; perhaps looking over the sides&#8230; and then the half hour walking away from the bridge&#8230;</p>
<p>I need a break from writing, from remembering, from imagining&#8230; and if I think I need a break&#8230; ohh&#8230;. what about the courageous people of this country?&nbsp;&nbsp; No break is afforded them.&nbsp;&nbsp; We have so much to learn from them. How can we facilitate this?</p>
<p>Lets just end for now thinking about&nbsp; the change from&nbsp; &quot;Amafranga&quot;&nbsp; to&nbsp;&nbsp; &quot;Agacupa&quot;.&nbsp; If you are able to look past the exterior of these little ones and look deep into their eyes, you find their smiles and easy laughter so very inviting&#8230;so very infectious&#8230; so very resilient.</p>
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Delays are not all bad.
In about 4 hours I should be touching down in Kigali.&#160; My flight out of Nairobi has been delayed and its given me time to reflect on what the next 12 days might be like in Rwanda. 
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<h2><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Delays are not all bad.</p>
<p>In about 4 hours I should be touching down in Kigali.&nbsp; My flight out of Nairobi has been delayed and its given me time to reflect on what the next 12 days might be like in Rwanda. </p>
<p>I just spent 3 weeks in Zimbabwe and was blown away by the courage and resilience of a people who surely have been stretched way beyond the limit again and again and again.&nbsp; How can they be smiling and even laughing when a little banana cost a weeks wages?&nbsp; Wages obviously are not what people live off of.&nbsp; It&rsquo;s their gardens for those fortunate enough to have one and then a lot of ingenuity along with their wits.&nbsp; Here outside Mutare in the eastern part of the country recently discovered&nbsp; diamonds have apparently recreated the &ldquo;wild west gold rush&rdquo; all over again.&nbsp; When I first arrived at Paula&#8217;s orphanage I had met an innocent faced clean cut&nbsp; 16 year old&nbsp; orphan boy&nbsp; who was living with his aunt near the orphanage, decided that he and a friend would head towards the diamond fields about 10 days ago to try and get money for the family and school fees.&nbsp; They found such chaos, saw a guy get shot in the leg and ended up fleeing for their lives.&nbsp; All the while his aunt was at home&nbsp; on her knees praying after failing to dissuade him from going.&nbsp; Think about a 16 year old you know being driven to something like that&hellip;</p>
<p>On another day there after dropping off a bag of potatoes to a single mom who looks after here 5 children plus 5 more orphans plus her aging mom, I was kicking up dust&nbsp; in a&nbsp; field&nbsp; with a local dad&nbsp; when he told me that the people are praying for better rains this year (recent years yields have been less than minimal). &ldquo;People here eat one meal a day,&rdquo; he went on, &ldquo;which as adults we can do, but the children don&rsquo;t understand.&rdquo;&nbsp; </p>
<p>Writing about her childhood, a Rwandan survivor who lost so many family members and friends said &ldquo;Pastor says we&rsquo;re all of us, all humanity, just children walking along paths whose past and portent we hardly know.&nbsp; But we actual children know so little - and sense so much&hellip;&rdquo;&nbsp; </p>
<p>And that brings me back to thought s on Rwanda. Yes I&rsquo;m so anxious to see friends,&nbsp; and once again experience the generous heartfelt Rwandan hospitality, but&hellip; there is this &ldquo;but&rdquo; that I&rsquo;m not sure I want to put words to&hellip; walking the roads and paths that are so stuffed with memories&hellip; memories that can inspire and memories that can foul.&nbsp; Yet &ldquo;put words to&rdquo; is exactly what I&rsquo;ve got to do.&nbsp; It&rsquo;s one of the main reasons I&rsquo;m going.&nbsp; </p>
<p>Starting a book has seemed like an impossible task.&nbsp;&nbsp; &ldquo;Eat the Elephant&rdquo; a good friend has said more than once in recent years.&nbsp; One bite at a time&hellip;14 years later&hellip; yes I still have the tapes I made to Teresa during the genocide and yes I&rsquo;ve been living the genocide a hundred times over in schools around the country, but the book&hellip;the book has got to be something more than just a collection of stories about&nbsp; the most horrible 100 days of the 20th century&hellip; as incredibly selfless and courageous as the Rwandans are in these stories ( if you&rsquo;ve heard any of our stories you know I&rsquo;ve chosen to focus on these Rwandans,)&hellip;. Well&nbsp; a book with just these stories would be of serous value&hellip;. Yet&hellip; well there is more&hellip; we can know so much and sense so little, or like children, we can &quot;know so little and sense so much&quot;&#8230;</p>
<p>That&rsquo;s why I woke up one morning last month,&nbsp; a couple of days after 3 generous families offered to pay my ticket to Zimbabwe, and&nbsp; said to Teresa, &ldquo;What do you think about me adding a couple more weeks on to the Africa trip and going&nbsp; to Rwanda to start the book there.&rdquo;&nbsp; There in Kigali, there among those hills, among those memorials, visiting the orphanages again, finding friends I have not seen since the end of the genocide&hellip; and as you might well guess Teresa said&nbsp; Yes, do it, do it with my full support.&nbsp; The smile, the tone, the conviction, I knew she meant it from deep down.&nbsp; Once again I&rsquo;m thinking &ldquo;She&rsquo;s incredible&hellip; how could I be so blessed?!&rdquo; (we celebrate 27 years tomorrow since we both said &ldquo;I do&rdquo;, I think it is the first anniversary we have sent apart.)</p>
<p>Ok..,&nbsp; for some reason I feel a little more prepared. (funny it takes about 10 times longer to write this than it does to read it) Got to get to my departure gate&hellip; Thanks for being with me during this flight delay in Nairobi airport.&nbsp; You know right outside the window on that very tarmac is where I touched down 14 years ago. it was a week after the genocide ended I&rsquo;d hitched a ride out of Kigali on a Canadian Military C130 transport plane.&nbsp; When I climbed down those steps and saw my Teresa, Mindy, Lisa, and Shaun coming towards me&hellip;. Let me tell you&hellip; that was&nbsp; a dream I had dreamt again and again and again, every one of those 88 nights I slept in the hallway of our home in Kigali&hellip; A dream I had sometimes feared would only be a dream&hellip; and there they were&hellip; arms, cheeks, voices, laughter, tears&hellip; yea&hellip;yup&hellip; this boy better get writing.</p>
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<p>So what is your idea of doing without? I&rsquo;m, in this moment, in the middle of Africa, in a country with undisputedly the highest inflation rate in the world and I have a lousy cold. Talking like a frog with stuff running down the back of my throat, coughing up a chest that aches from coughing non stop and no decongestant. Nothing to clear the head, stop the faucet running nose, end this racking cough. ( I am squeezing fresh lemons)</p>
<p>So that&rsquo;s my idea of doing without. What&rsquo;s yours?</p>
<p>Yet as I look at the little kids around me and hear their coughing orchestra, I think &quot;wait a minute boy, why have you come to accept this as the norm?&quot; Little runny nose coughing kids&hellip; that&rsquo;s not acceptable! What other &quot;unacceptables&quot; do I just accept as the norm?</p>
<p>What other experiences do I need to pass through (and this lousy cold is minor) in order for me to recognize the accepted &quot;unacceptables&quot; in my world?</p>
<p>Stood in a bread line 4 days ago. Everyone should have the experience at least once&hellip; the only white guy standing in line wondering what the others are thinking, and more importantly what their situation is at home, 160 billion dollars per loaf. Not a big deal for me since I start with US dollars and change them so this loaf is a couple of bucks, but what about the other people in line who do not start with US dollars? How is there even a line?</p>
<p>Amidst mountains of hurt and hunger beauty will not die.</p>
<p>In the ped ward there were 4 little ones with burns of different size and intensity, but all needing hospitalization, all needing burn cream that they are supposed to go and buy at the local pharmacies where a tiny single serving cost $30&hellip;. A mom on the right looks into your face with the pleading of a mom asking not for herself but for her baby&hellip; Stepping into the adjoining room you find 3 sharp professional nurses in spotless crisp uniforms and they greet you with a smile&hellip;.a smile&hellip; how can they do it? I thank one of them for what she is doing in these very difficult times. &quot;What else can we do?&quot; she says with a shrug of her shoulders. I think to myself, &quot;you could exit like others.&quot; but out loud I say, &quot; Well thank you so much for your service.&quot; I&rsquo;m told she gets less than 160B a month, but she still faithfully comes to work every day&hellip;.. With a smile!&hellip; that&rsquo;s beauty!</p>
<p>There is laughter coming from the open kitchen building at the orphanage. As I step in the walls to my left and right are lined with happy kids stuffing their talking faces with beans and potatoes. As I take my bowl from the serving table one of the boys says &quot;come sit at our table.&quot; The short bench he offers me is about 6 inches tall which is just right for the table about 20 inches.</p>
<p>As I look around the room these faces and sounds are gorgeous! There on the other wall sandwiched in between 2 little ones sits Jon with his bowl of beans and potatoes. Jon is spending his summer here and I ask him over the chatter, &quot;How does this compare with MRE&rsquo;s? (Jon spent 2 tours in Iraq) &quot;No comparison!&quot; he says with a laugh. Beauty will not die.</p>
<p>The thought comes to me again and again, more than &quot;believing what we see&quot;, &quot;we see what we believe!&quot;. And what we experience is bound to shape what we determine as the &quot;unacceptables&quot; in our world.</p>
<p>Carl - World Outside My Shoes</p>
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<p>Is genocide really that bad?</p>
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